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Friday, 30 October 2009

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

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    Hello, Everyone!

    I have missed my Xanga friends so much! Thanks to Landen and Michel for giving me an extra "command" to show my face round here again.

    Je suis revenu! I am back!

    I have spent most of this year overseeing the construction of the addition to our school, and now that it is finished (end of July), I am teaching fulltime along with Sarah, Rosemary and Libby... It's a family affair.

    Our teaching interns, all three of them, were forced to return home (to Kenya, and Tasmania and Western Sahara) to help support their families in this global economic downturn.

    To Michel: Je n'ai pas été pris au piège dans un cachot, mais pris au piège d'enseigner l'école!

    We’re enjoying autumn break presently, so I will definitely be visiting my old friends. We don’t return to school until after Samhain.

    Speaking of which, here’s a ghoulish poem for the season that I wrote last year, but…

    WARNING! Danger, Will Robinson!

    This is not for the faint of heart nor for children under thirteen years of age.

    I’ll talk with everyone soon!

    Allison 

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    vampires and other neck romancers

    (c)2009

    by

    Allison February McKinley

     

     

    it’s here it’s here that night of fear when ghouls like me all senses shed

    at Halloween on All Saint’s Eve to recreate with your un-dead

     

    like B. Lugosi getting cosy with the lust that makes me crave

    their skinless squalor lifeless pallor I’ll go out and rob a grave

     

    delight in fright and dance all night where skeletal remains abound

    in watery clubs of worms and grubs flesh decomposing underground

     

    and she’ll bemoan that she’s alone enduring mortuary rape

    but ere she rots she’s pretty hot I’ll take her where she can’t escape

     

    while up above blood suckers love the juice that’s not of rotting flesh

    and arteries without disease pump fallow blood and billow fresh

     

    a vampire whispers evening vespers voice decrees above the pall

    while playing bones like xylophones “it’s neck romance or none at all”

     

    below earth’s crust by hungry thrusts I’ll ravage these nocturnal throngs

    through rotting teeth their souls bequeath in sexual rites to further wrongs

     

    for flesh in tatters knows no matters in this stench the bowels of earth

    are nightmares spun for girls undone a world devoid of warmth and mirth

     

    thus I French-kiss corpora listless wetly tonguing bloodless napes

    while their eyes dull in rotting skulls consider dark and damning shapes

     

    in cemeteries dead un-buried taken on the Eve of Saints

    I must confess (although a mess) a dead girl utters no complaints

     

    soon I’ll divorce this lifeless corpse and in my mental rendezvous

    as I withdraw her lipless jaw will whisper softly I love you

     

    O! it’s here it’s here that night you fear when ghouls like me arrive to bed

    at Halloween on All Saint’s Eve your pretty corpses done and dead

     

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Thursday, 22 January 2009

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    Hi, Everybody!

     

    How is everyone getting on in the new year? I’m doing very well, but too busy with too many projects.

     

    Xanga has been so quiet lately but the poem below is not aimed at my friends. I entered this poem in a contest.

     

    My love to all!

     

     

    mute
    disapproval

    ©2008

    Allison February McKinley


    were i
    a queen

    or perhaps

    your

    psychoanalyst

    i could
    read
    the

    untold

    volumes
    of your
    silence
    yet all
    i feel

    is the

    heat

    of your
    voiceless
    scorn
    mere mortal
    i

     Allison

     

Friday, 02 January 2009

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    Are you in a spiritual cul-de-sac?

    And, what the heck are sugar plums?

     

     

    The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
    while visions of sugar plums danced in their heads.

     

    I have heard the poem “‘Twas the night before Christmas” many times. The actual name of the poem is “A Visit from St. Nicholas”; and although I have even read it to my children, I never questioned the words…

     

    …until last Sunday evening before Christmas, when my four year old daughter Elle, asked, “What are sugar plums?”

     

    We are a funny lot, aren’t we?

     

    Oh, and by “we”, I’m mean to indicate us Earth People.

     

    We are quick to ascribe memory to inanimate objects (memory foam, memory steel), yet slow to recognise intelligence in the universe.

     

    We can recite a poem about sugar plums year after year and never know what we are actually saying.

     

    We can read the bible and preach it to others without ever actually understanding the meaning of the words ourselves.

     

    Sugar plums are not plums at all. They are confections rolled into the shape of plums.

     

    The Bible we read today is not the Bible that was written.

     

    I find this interesting: We demand precision in our automobiles and watches, yet will easily accept a sloppy, perhaps even purposely slanted, translation of the Bible.

     

    Two billion, or so, of us Earth People believe in the words of a text that has been twisted beyond recognition.

     

    Does the Bible have “memory”? Can it bounce back? Can we help in retrieving its meaning? Or will we continue to recite the Bible incorrectly and allow misinterpretation to guide our own spiritual paths?

     

    Many Christians and Jews might be quite surprised to read the original text of Genesis; because nowhere does it say

     

    “In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth”

     

    That is a big point, don’t you think?

     

    Further, let us realise that the division of the books of the bible into verses with numbers is an arbitrary division. Those numbers were added by men who wanted to reference particular lines. I can understand that. The same has been done with Jane Eyre, but we don’t read that annotated version and accept that Charlotte Bronte wrote it that way.

     

    Moreover, ancient writing contains no punctuation marks. Those were added my men as well.

     

    So, let us look at Genesis, sticking as nearly as possible to the actual words of the original text. (Even Young’s Literal Translation of the Bible contains inconsistency: at times he is known to translate the exact same word differently.)

     

     

    Genesis 1:1 actually reads:

     

    In the beginning of God's preparing the heavens and the earth –

     

    This is not a declarative statement. This is not a sentence on its own. This is an introductory phrase. So let us add to it more of that sentence:

     

    In the beginning of God's preparing the heavens and the earth – the earth hath existed waste and void, and darkness on the face of the deep, and the Spirit of God fluttering on the face of the waters…

     

    Wow. What does that mean?

     

    This is the text of Genesis translated as nearly as possible word for word from the original text.

     

    Remember, in the original, there were no marks of punctuation, but I consider that the word “and” is a good divider in place of punctuation. It also shows continuity; none of these events happened alone. Creation was an ongoing process over a span of time.

     

    For ease of reading, I have separated the text into the days of creation. You may choose to do otherwise:

     

    In the beginning of God's preparing the heavens and the earth – the earth hath existed waste and void, and darkness on the face of the deep, and the Spirit of God fluttering on the face of the waters, and God saith, `Let light be;' and light is. And God seeth the light that good, and God separateth between the light and the darkness; and God calleth to the light `Day,' and to the darkness He hath called `Night;' and there is an evening, and there is a morning -- day one.

    And God saith, `Let an expanse be in the midst of the waters, and let it be separating between waters and waters.' And God maketh the expanse, and it separateth between the waters which under the expanse, and the waters which above the expanse: and it is so. And God calleth to the expanse `Heavens;' and there is an evening, and there is a morning -- day second.

    And God saith, `Let the waters under the heavens be collected unto one place, and let the dry land be seen:' and it is so. And God calleth to the dry land `Earth,' and to the collection of the waters He hath called `Seas;' and God seeth that good. And God saith, `Let the earth yield tender grass, herb sowing seed, fruit-tree whose seed in itself making fruit after its kind, on the earth:' and it is so. And the earth bringeth forth tender grass, herb sowing seed after its kind, and tree making fruit whose seed in itself after its kind; and God seeth that good; and there is an evening, and there is a morning -- day third.

    And God saith, `Let luminaries be in the expanse of the heavens, to make a separation between the day and the night, then they have been for signs, and for seasons, and for days and years, and they have been for luminaries in the expanse of the heavens to give light upon the earth:' and it is so. And God maketh the two great luminaries, the great luminary for the rule of the day, and the small luminary -- and the stars -- for the rule of the night; and God giveth them in the expanse of the heavens to give light upon the earth, and to rule over day and over night, and to make a separation between the light and the darkness; and God seeth that good; and there is an evening, and there is a morning -- day fourth.

    And God saith, `Let the waters teem with the teeming living creature, and fowl let fly on the earth on the face of the expanse of the heavens.' And God prepareth the great monsters, and every living creature that is creeping, which the waters have teemed with, after their kind, and every fowl with wing, after its kind, and God seeth that good. And God blesseth them, saying, `Be fruitful, and multiply, and fill the waters in the seas, and the fowl let multiply in the earth:' and there is an evening, and there is a morning -- day fifth.

    And God saith, `Let the earth bring forth the living creature after its kind, cattle and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after its kind:' and it is so. And God maketh the beast of the earth after its kind, and the cattle after their kind, and every creeping thing of the ground after its kind, and God seeth that good. And God saith, `Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness, and let them rule over fish of the sea, and over fowl of the heavens, and over cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that is creeping on the earth.' And God prepareth the man in His image; in the image of God He prepared him, a male and a female He prepared them. And God blesseth them, and God saith to them, `Be fruitful, and multiply, and fill the earth, and subdue it, and rule over fish of the sea, and over fowl of the heavens, and over every living thing that is creeping upon the earth.' And God saith, `Lo, I have given to you every herb sowing seed, which upon the face of all the earth, and every tree in which the fruit of a tree sowing seed, to you it is for food; and to every beast of the earth, and to every fowl of the heavens, and to every creeping thing on the earth, in which breath of life, every green herb or food:' and it is so. And God seeth all that He hath done, and lo, very good; and there is an evening, and there is a morning -- day the sixth.

     

    This account is certainly given from a geocentric standpoint, but, as far as I can tell, there is nothing in here that contradicts the theory of evolution, and a great deal here that supports it.

     

    Happy New Year!

     

    Allison

     

Saturday, 13 December 2008

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    Season’s Greeting All

     

    Xanga has been a ghost town lately, don’t you think?

     

    I have been meaning to post this first picture for some time. The older children—Millie, Robbie and Sedge—were playing with Google Maps in October as part of a school project and thought it was so marvellous that they could see our house from outer space.

     

    Since, they have been scheming to create a visible landing pad for St. Nick.

     

    Seeing this picture gave me a good laugh. Look at those things in the road. They’re not fuzzy cars. They’re sheep. When I tell people that we live in a rural environment, I don’t think they usually understand how isolated from the civilized world we are.

     

     

    GOOGLE EDGEWYTHE MANOR  

    This depicts the newer section of the house, the west wing that was finished in 1947.

     

    The older part of the house, finished in 1802, is significantly larger, but not as pretty. You can see where it begins at the left of the picture as the drive bends toward the garage and stables.

     

    I do not know when this picture was taken, but it has to be nearly a year and a half old, because we remodelled the pavilion that year and you can see there is not much more than a hole in the earth where it stood (in the west garden between the house and the twin trees).

     

     

    Edgewythe Manor 1929 r  

    This picture, painted in 1929, shows the pavilion as it was then with the old house behind.

     

     

    the LAKE  

    This is the road that runs across our land… Sarah snapped this picture earlier today.

     

    Can you see our destination?: the grove of trees above the lake. We dragged our Christmas tree home behind the Landy just hours ago. Peter and Edris and the children are still struggling to get it into the drawing room and rain has begun to fall from an ebony sky.

     

    This year, even the little girls, Elle, Marcail and Lacy, are old enough to help decorate. They all celebrated their fourth birthdays in the past few months; Marcail in June, Lacy in September, and Elle just three weeks ago.

     

    If I don’t see you again soon, enjoy a fantastic holiday season!

     

    Allison

     

     

Saturday, 06 December 2008




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    petit mort

    © 2008

    Allison February McKinley

     

    I will always carry spring

    in my heart of course

    as a concept as a memory as a feeling

    a photograph of better times

    but now as I watch the earth die slowly

    I am stunned again by her mortality

    the contradiction of life and death

     

    in the antipodes spring is in full bloom

    soon to be adorned by the regal crown of summer

    down there they’ll be swimming

    in the ocean and drinking

    Foster’s Beer and putting

    another shrimp on the barbie

     

    I’ll soon be wrapping myself in goose down

    and hibernating like a bear


Monday, 17 November 2008

Friday, 14 November 2008

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    Here's a short and simple romantic poem to start your weekend.

    I wish everyone love and happiness!

    xanga on nov 14 08

    Ripples

    ©2008

    by

    Allison February McKinley

     

     

     ripples to brooks

    are what steps are to strolling--

    come walk with me now love

    and feel my heart flowing

     

Saturday, 08 November 2008

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    Enjoy a few holiday pictures with a dose of philosophy

     

     

    CAN DEATH BE ETERNAL IF LIFE IS NOT?

     

     

    Well, there’s something to think about. And after Halloween and Samhain and Dia de los Muertos, I have been thinking about that.

     

    Is it possible to imagine that in the trillions and trillions of millennia of the universe that the light of our soul is a spark that flashes for but one millisecond?

     

    Why would a creator create such a thing? Why would life evolve into that form?

     

    Some people believe they have a soul. Some people don’t believe in souls. Some people don’t ever think about this one way or the other.

     

    I do.Urquhart Castle  

    And, of course, if souls are real, you don’t have to be a “religious” person or even believe in the existence of souls as a prerequisite to actually having one.

     

    However, the commonality in all religions on this earth is probably the belief that each of us has a soul.

     

    The variation between religions comes in their prescription for how to keep that soul in good shape; you know… like, the church is the chemist’s shop that dispenses medicine to keep your soul well. Every religion prescribes a different medicine, or the same medicine with a variation on how to take it.

     

    Some people who believe in souls believe that their soul will merge with the Universal Consciousness upon their body’s death. Well, then, isn’t that the same as dying? I wouldn’t call that an eternal soul. If the Universal Consciousness consumes your soul completely, isn’t that a death similar to the earth consuming your body?

     

    That is not what I would want eternal life to be.

     

    Have you ever wondered, though, where your soul is? I think about that. I mean, does it ride on your shoulder like a guardian angel or a parrot? Do we really even know if our soul is close by? Is it the aura that our body seems to generate? Or maybe our soul is inside us, looking out at life through our senses. Or, perhaps our body is merely a façade, an interface with all else that exists, and our soul extends for thousands of miles behind us.

     

    What does a soul look like? Would it be a light that resembles the shape of our body? Hmmm. I wonder. Does a soul have arms and legs? Because, if a soul has arms and legs, it probably has reproductive organs as well, and somehow, I cannot imagine that. I don’t think souls are male or female. Spirit life is probably a restful holiday from that distraction.Fort William Steam Train

     

    Would your soul appear as an orb of light? Perhaps it would be an elongated bubble—you know, to allow room for a centre of consciousness and a centre for the heart. For what good is living forever if you can’t feel?

     

    I would want to have my loved ones with me in my after life. But I don’t know if that is possible.

     

    What I think happens and what I’d like to happen may be two different things.

     

    Logic tells me that the mind mostly merges with the Universal Consciousness, reveals itself to the creator, shares its experiences, surrenders most but not all of its memories, makes a deposit in the universal library, the Akashic Record; yet the heart, in the form of an orb of light, remains; ethereal, but therefor not ephemeral: a hardy and migratory collection of polynucleotide pairs of golden light with a personality… a double-helix DNA body capable of feeling love and joy.

     

    I’ve been thinking about my soul at lot lately. In fact, I am trying to live my life in such a way that the last day of my life will be the best day of my life.

     

    Sometimes that requires a great deal of work—especially when I have so many questions.

     

    Allison

     

Sunday, 19 October 2008

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    Good Sunday to all:

    Ah, fate takes a hand. I am here with a few moments to spare to post pictures, and Xanga bugs will not allow me to upload them. Well, here are three that I had already uploaded. I'll post more tomorrow. (I hope).

    In the locks between lochs. Laggan_Locks2

     

     

     

    We boated all the way across Scotland, from Inverness on the North Sea to Fort William near the Irish Sea and then back again.

     

     

     

     

    This is the boatyard where we hired our boats. It looks a bit like Pirates Cove at EuroDisney.Caley_Boatyard

     

     

     

     

     

     

    This was one of our brightest days. The lake was very calm most of the time. over the bow

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    Oh, and I posted a new (actually, revamped) poem below that has nothing to do with the pictures.

    Mina's site got me quite... well, let's say ready for some cuddling and snuggling. This is a poem that relates more to that than to holiday. The clock is approaching midnight here and I'm off to join Sarah in bed.

    Good night!

    Dreams of Jofranka

    ©2008

    by

    Allison February McKinley

     

    Dark eyes has she that tease what if?

    as she directs our own film noir

    her gypsy bed a mystery

    my web embossed with filigree

    and golden rings of candlelight

     

    I sense wet whispers at my ear

    and turn to kiss her impish mouth

    her skilful hands caress my hair

    I clutch my heart… Aha! still there

    whilst chains about my waist she slips

     

    To tambourines and violin

    her mulled wines dance and soon my will

    accepts her body young and lithe

    and at our feet two jaguars writhe

    organic shadows of the night

     

    ‘Crawl back to sleep!’ she warns too soon

    my dream recedes to memories

    where perfume rides upon the wind

    I wake unsure if I have sinned

    the name Jofranka on my lips

     

    Thus prisoner I’ll remain of dreams

    an ofttime ravaged volunteer

    held spellbound by her wanton sway

    thus to her arms I shall away

    in nightly journeys of delight

     

     

     

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  • Like Charlotte Bronte, once our next-door neighbour, I am a writer from the heart of Yorkshire, a girl given to flights of fancy and fantasy. I live on my family's estate on the moors overlooking the future and the past. Our house rings with the laughter of six children, seven years and under, and many grown-up children, amongst them my life's love Sarah, my brother and his wife, my three aunts, an adopted brother and sister and their baby... family all... Oh, and two thoroughbreds, three cobs (mares), and five ponies, with three more on the way.

Meaning of Circadian Rhythm

From desert sands of silent time
and pocket watches mute,
to Big Ben’s pomp and circumstance…
My Felix clock is cute!

And calendars—timekeepers too
like sundials a la carte,
but all of them are moot without
a beating human heart.

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